hairable two

I don't know why they call it "free time."
time spent while not working most always ends up expensive.

today, there are a lot of things I could do. ie:
.get groceries, end up buying cookies/misc. crap.
.sell some clothes, end up buying more than i went with.
.go look at books, end up buying books.
.call someone, end up buying ice cream or coffee or or or or or or.



life is expensive.



so instead of partaking in expensive living, i have been sitting here writing songs (you are lucky i choose to do this as a solitary activity. no ingrid michaelson am i) and contemplating some very important life issues. which is what brings me to the reason for this post.

WHAT SHOULD I DO
with my hair?

[vain, yes, but necessary, also yes. this calls to my mind my 8th grade bible study. some 8th grade girls have serious issues in their lives, this I know. but my particular group, back in those days, was either incredibly blessed, or incredibly narrow-minded, OR just really young, because all we ever asked for prayer about...was our hair. seriously. what to do with our hair. praying it would grow out faster. asking God why we had the hair we had vs. other hair we'd rather have. every week we discussed this in bible study. I think a few times, there were even tears. wish I was exaggerating. I cringe to think about the things that went un-prayed for, trumped by split ends and to-layer-or-not-to-layer. since then, I've thought some about my hair-probably average amount of hair-mindedness, for a girl. I allow myself to discuss it and ponder it. but barring unforeseen circumstance or disease....pretty sure I vow never to pray about hair ever again.]

i used to have cornflower sunshine hair.
then about a year ago, i dyed it; became raven velvet hair.
in essence, i like both.
but creeping into my mind has been the question of what to do next.
go back? stay dark? what looks best? what feels most "me"?

should I just dye it red out of lack of any better idea!?

that would be dark, mature, stark, mysterious-bordering-on-scary.
this would be sunny, blondie, carefree (aka: false advertising).

help me! (a plea is different than a prayer.)